From the moment we are born life is shaping us and our story!
This is my story.
Welcome, and thank you for being in community with me!
As a daughter of the south, born to sharecropper parents, my journey is rich with every small-town rural country, back dirt road stigma and generational pattern you can imagine.
With a Baptist upbringing, “I Love The Lord, He Heard My Cry“ was more than just a song we sang at church on Sundays. It was indeed the gospel of not only my life but the battle cry of my community.
I’ve spent many years peeling back the layers of what shaped me and healing from the truth of what impacted me, desperately wanting to understand the world around me and understand myself - why was there so much suffering, so much pain, so much wrong? My upbringing was intolerant of a child asking questions; it was considered unacceptable and inappropriate. This did not go well for me, especially given my innate curiosity and natural wonder.
I am infinitely grateful for my mother
who was somewhat tolerant though I usually wore out her patience after question number 5 (that’s when I got the side-eye, and I knew it was time to go play). Being the youngest of ten, I was slow to grasp how annoying asking questions was to my older siblings, other family members, and ultimately even my childhood friends.
Frustrations would usually boil to “why do you have to know everything” or “why do you ask so many questions” along with “you talk too much”. But it was so hard for me not to ask questions, I loved to wonder, examine and study all things “WHY” about life!
I was and am in awe of the human experience. It was difficult to accept that not everyone long to understand things so deeply. This deeply held curiosity continues to be both my greatest teacher and my most powerful gift.
I’ve always been highly intuitive, intensely curious, a deep thinker, and an old soul carrying a sense of knowing that life is preciously mystical and mysterious - I’ve carried this belief with me for as far back as I can remember though I didn’t always understand my own consciousness and I’ve had to learn how to manage and appreciate the depth of awareness.
Growing up in a culture where “being good and doing the right thing” was the expectation though indiscretions, dishonesty, shame, guilt, dysfunction, and denial was the norm. Mental disorders were taboo along with emotions, violations, assaults, sin, and religious dogma – contradictions were a way of life and hypocrisy was a way of coping. I have lived out every aspect of everything I bore witness to as a child either directly or indirectly. I now understand that every single experience that served to shape my life was not only necessary but now serves to support my greatest good – I AM humbled!
My journey to becoming…
In a world that is conditioning and imposing on every aspect of our life, constantly telling us how to be, what to think, and what to do, I am a radical cycle breaker who finally surrendered to align with what feels truly authentic in living my highest, greatest expression of myself.
Many of my family members did not possess the awareness required to create the life they wanted to be living due to fear or lack of opportunity.
These limitations have traveled through multiple generations within my family history all the way down to me. Indeed, I used to live with some pretty intense fear. Sadly, I was totally unaware of how much fear was controlling much of my life, so much so that it felt normal. It was deeply embedded in every belief, every emotion, every action and reaction, every connection, and every single part of my being – I was existing through much of my life, working with the limited tools of conditioning and dysfunctional behaviors.
On the path to greater freedom…
Understanding and learning to face and conquer fear was and remains a necessary mastery.
I learned that fear is only as big as you think it is. Fear and I have a truly loving relationship today. I don’t resist it, and it doesn’t stop me. I leaned in and trusted that everything I wanted was on the other side of this fear. I took my passion for personal development and psychology and followed my intuition and pursued my quietly kept lifelong dream to attain my certification as a Lifestyle Strategist and Leadership Coach. This decision and every step I’ve taken since has truly been ordered and in alignment with living my purpose. Not only do I get to do more of what I love, but my own life has transformed in ways that still give me goosebumps.
“I learned that fear is only as big as you think it is.”
I believe that each of us is seeking some variation of fulfillment, success, purpose, or freedom. But so few of us know that when we are in flow with our life, we will never experience emptiness.
I've evolved to a space in my life where I practice gratitude daily! Today, I am a spirited, ever-evolving lover of life! And nothing gratifies me more than pouring my passion for life into those who are looking for ways to shift and wake up from their own generational trauma patterns and commit to the life they want.